Hmmmm….where do I begin?
Wednesday, February 27, 2013 marked 9 years since an unforgettable, terrible, pleasant day that happened in the past. You see, 9 years ago I lost my mother to brain cancer; I will never forget that day. I was 19 years old when my mother passed away, it was terrible and I wish no one had to experience it themselves. There was one pleasant part of the the day, the fact that my mother was no longer sufferring and she went to heaven to see Jesus and other friends and family that had passed on; most importantly she no longer had to suffer. I miss her daily and I love her very much! What is a 19 year old girl supposed to do without her mother and best friend? How can you push yourself to move on with life? Let me tell you, it takes a lot of faith and a lot of family and friends support, without those things I could not have made it to where I am today.
My mother:
She was the type of person everyone could/would love, she had an awesome personality, she was fun, very strong in her faith, loving, caring, always showing kindness to others, lending a helping hand whenever needed, always there if anyone needed her to be; she was our youth leader, my coach all my life in multiple sports, and several people’s best friend….I could go on forever. We did everything together, the best relationship a mother and daughter could have, you can’t beat it, simply stated she was “THE BEST” at and with everything. She was a true inspiration to many people.
Precious Memories and I am thankful:
When a loved one passes away the only thing you have left to hold onto is precious memories and pictures. Pictures can bring out a lot of precious memories but there is always those awesome memories that didn’t get photographed. Some of the best memories I had with my mother was when we used to go to the Lake and swing on the swing set and just talk for multiple hours about anything and everything, quite a bonding time for us. My dad wasn’t too keen on this because he missed us and couldn’t understand why we just couldn’t talk at home, sorry dad, but it just wasn’t the same. Mom and I had some very spiritually moving moments while we were swinging multiple times. We used to swing in sync or swing opposite, see who could swing the highest, see who could touch that one branch with their toes, or just simply sway back in forth a little while talking. Losing a loved one is never easy and they will always be missed but you just have to hang on to those precious memories and be thankful for those. As I have said before my mother always told me, “Treena, there is a positive side to everything, you just have to find it.” These words have stuck with me my whole life and always will. It does help to try and find the positive side to everything.
Some things I have learned:
Obviously losing a loved one is never easy but with faith, family, and friends somehow it gets a little easier to cope but will never go away. Simply stated I will always have a hole in my heart because I miss her so much. I have also found out from several different people over time how much of an inspiration my mother was to different people. It is always so amazing when I get to hear a story from someone on how my mom touched their life. My mother had several great friends that really cherished and looked up to her that I didn’t even know about until later in life. My mother was a true hero to me and several other people.
My only hope:
I only hope that I can be an inspiration to people like my mother was. I really hope to be just like her and it is a big compliment to me when someone says, “You are just like you mother” or “You look just like your mother.” Don’t get me wrong, I also love it when people say, “You are just like your dad” or “You look just like you dad.” Each statement has a different meaning to me, but I love it when people tell me those things. My mother was so strong in her faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, I only hope I can have/keep that faith and inspire others.
In conclusion:
I truly miss my mother daily and I loved her so much. I believe she is now my guardian angel and watches over me daily. I am thankful for my family and friends and all they have done for me helping me get through tough times.
One day I will write the whole story down of what happened to my mother, but not today.